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So obviously this band isn’t new, but I’ve just recently gotten into them and I am obsessed! Every single day, whether I’m driving to college or work, I’m listening to their albums. “Tourist History” is my favorite, followed by “Beacon” and their newer EP , “Changing of the Seasons”. Back in June, my friends were all going to their concert at a place in Lewiston that always has concerts on Wednesday’s for $20. I thought, “Why not? I’ll by a ticket”. They were mind blowing!!! They were definitely in my top favorite concerts I’ve ever seen and I would definitely recommend checking them out if you haven’t already. They are inspiring. They’re music is incredible. I don’t know how they do it. ;D

Avidd the Band logo

Avidd the Band logo

So as you guys are probably well aware of, I’m in a pop punk band called Avidd! We have gone through numerous members since we formed in December of 2012, but we are still as motivated as we’ve ever been! Currently, it’s just my drummer, Rich Miller, and I. Our lead guitarist, Sal, officially moved to Pittsburgh for his school and we completely understood. We are still always searching for new members so if anyone has an idea, please let us know! I love playing in a band. It was what I have always dreamed of and Avidd has always been there for me. We don’t play out as often as I wish we did, but one day we will get back to live shows and tours! If you want our CD, go to aviddtheband.com! Until we put more out, keep checking my solo project and let me know what you think!!! <3 Lexxi

Paramore<3 Paramore is another one of my favorite bands. Well, DUH! Hayley Williams is an amazing lyricist, performer, and punk-rock diva! She is my idol. I've only seen them live once but my band has covered them numerous times in the last couple of years. I love their music and it really speaks to me.

I <3 TOP Twenty One Pilots is my favorite band ever. And I mean EVER. I go back and forth between All Time Low and Panic! At the Disco as my number two, but TOP will forever be number one. I love everything about the music, beat, and lyrics. Tyler Joseph is the most amazing lyricist I've ever heard and they put on the best show I've ever seen. If you haven't checked them out, you better! I promise you won't regret it. 😀

Why I Wrote “Valediction” 🙁

“Valediction” is very close to my heart. I wrote it about one of the most special people in the world to me, although we weren’t as close as I would have liked. My birth father was pushed out of my life when I was two years old and I learned how live a life without him. Fourteen years later he found his way back in. We reconnected and everything seemed like it was fitting into place. After a few months, he took himself out of the equation because he figured I would be better off without him. I wasn’t. And before I could do anything about it, I realized I would never talk to him again. I wrote this song in honor of him, his life, and the life I wished we could have had. R.I.P. Anthony Grandinetti.

Avril Lavigne

I’ve also explained how much I love Avril in a previous vlog but I’ll say it again.. SHE IS AMAZING! I have loved her since her very beginning, when I played “Complicated” and “Sk8ter Boi” on repeat enough to annoy my parents. She is everything I aspire to be, which is why I have done a couple covers of her songs. Hope you guys agree with me that she is the princess of punk and no one could ever match her. 😀

But who went?

I wrote “Where Did You Go?” about the best friend I ever had. We were friends for years until we something go in between us… and it was something we couldn’t get past. Our friendship went on over a year hiatus. I’m happy to say we have found each other again. This song will always remind me what it feels like to lose someone so close.


I made a more recent video which really elaborates why I wrote “STOP”. Basically, I wrote this song when I was depressed. I don’t have depression, (trust me, I am usually very happy all the time and really appreciate everything I have) but it was onset with my knee surgery. I had a knee brace that started near my hip and reached down past my calf. This was causing immense bruising on my entire leg and I have never felt such extreme pain before. I cried all the time because it hurt so badly. People didn’t understand how to treat me because they couldn’t imagine the pain I was feeling. I wrote this song partially out of anger, too, especially in the second verse. You couldn’t call me in the beginning of the surgery and ask how I am and then wait more than a month to check in on me again. I needed support and I couldn’t get it from everyone. I even lost my best friend because of how she didn’t care about my surgery. “STOP” ends on an optimistic note, because I knew that the post-op pain wouldn’t last forever and I would be able to return to my happy-go-lexxi self eventually. It was just a matter of time.

The Truth Behind “Suicidal Valentine”

I’m really proud of this song. It may be short, but it has a ton of meaning. It was a regular summer day when I got a text from my friend who said he didn’t matter anymore and there was no point in living. I spent the entire day proving to him that he was wrong and his life WAS worth living. I’m not sure if it was because of me or not, but he didn’t do anything fatal. He started seeing a therapist and whenever I see him now, I know he’s happy. We don’t speak of that long day, but we know it happened. I hope he listens to this song and knows it was my tribute to his fight. And just know, it’s not too late for you either. <3

Finally! A happy song! “This Is Special” Explanation. 😀

This song is very special to me… and to someone else in my life. I wrote this song as a six month-aversary gift to my amazing boyfriend, Chris. We have been together since October 2015 and both agree this is the best relationship we’ve ever been in. He was so touched that I wrote him a song and he’s actually the first guy I’ve gotten to play the song I wrote for them in person. (can’t exactly show a pre-ex boyfriend a break up song… awkward). I even let Chris name it! Although I might tweak the song for the EP haha. My band and I tried to flesh this out into a rock song and it might still happen one day. Who knows!? Please listen to this song and remember that I can write positive songs, too!