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“He Says, She Says” – Behind the Song!

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“He Says, She Says” – Behind the Song

Why I Wrote “Valediction” 🙁

“Valediction” is very close to my heart. I wrote it about one of the most special people in the world to me, although we weren’t as close as I would have liked. My birth father was pushed out of my life when I was two years old and I learned how live a life without him. Fourteen years later he found his way back in. We reconnected and everything seemed like it was fitting into place. After a few months, he took himself out of the equation because he figured I would be better off without him. I wasn’t. And before I could do anything about it, I realized I would never talk to him again. I wrote this song in honor of him, his life, and the life I wished we could have had. R.I.P. Anthony Grandinetti.

But who went?

I wrote “Where Did You Go?” about the best friend I ever had. We were friends for years until we something go in between us… and it was something we couldn’t get past. Our friendship went on over a year hiatus. I’m happy to say we have found each other again. This song will always remind me what it feels like to lose someone so close.


I made a more recent video which really elaborates why I wrote “STOP”. Basically, I wrote this song when I was depressed. I don’t have depression, (trust me, I am usually very happy all the time and really appreciate everything I have) but it was onset with my knee surgery. I had a knee brace that started near my hip and reached down past my calf. This was causing immense bruising on my entire leg and I have never felt such extreme pain before. I cried all the time because it hurt so badly. People didn’t understand how to treat me because they couldn’t imagine the pain I was feeling. I wrote this song partially out of anger, too, especially in the second verse. You couldn’t call me in the beginning of the surgery and ask how I am and then wait more than a month to check in on me again. I needed support and I couldn’t get it from everyone. I even lost my best friend because of how she didn’t care about my surgery. “STOP” ends on an optimistic note, because I knew that the post-op pain wouldn’t last forever and I would be able to return to my happy-go-lexxi self eventually. It was just a matter of time.

The Truth Behind “Suicidal Valentine”

I’m really proud of this song. It may be short, but it has a ton of meaning. It was a regular summer day when I got a text from my friend who said he didn’t matter anymore and there was no point in living. I spent the entire day proving to him that he was wrong and his life WAS worth living. I’m not sure if it was because of me or not, but he didn’t do anything fatal. He started seeing a therapist and whenever I see him now, I know he’s happy. We don’t speak of that long day, but we know it happened. I hope he listens to this song and knows it was my tribute to his fight. And just know, it’s not too late for you either. <3

Finally! A happy song! “This Is Special” Explanation. 😀

This song is very special to me… and to someone else in my life. I wrote this song as a six month-aversary gift to my amazing boyfriend, Chris. We have been together since October 2015 and both agree this is the best relationship we’ve ever been in. He was so touched that I wrote him a song and he’s actually the first guy I’ve gotten to play the song I wrote for them in person. (can’t exactly show a pre-ex boyfriend a break up song… awkward). I even let Chris name it! Although I might tweak the song for the EP haha. My band and I tried to flesh this out into a rock song and it might still happen one day. Who knows!? Please listen to this song and remember that I can write positive songs, too!

The Reason Behind “Hey, I Say”

I wrote this song for my mom a loooong time ago. We got in a fight one night and she left the house in tears. I had never felt so bad before. I said some pretty terrible things… I thought they were encouraging at the time but they made her feel worse about our current situation. She left for coffee and wasn’t planning on coming back for about an hour. I went into my room, pulled out my guitar, and wrote this song by the time she got back. I had never finished a song so quickly and had never been so proud. She came home and before she even took off her shoes, I made her come in my room so I could play the song I wrote for her. She cried, of course, and still does whenever I play it live. She will always be my biggest fan. <3

Why Did I Write “The Sappy Song”?

I started my band, Avidd The Band, in 2012 from a couple of Craigslist ads. We had a high school talent show called “West Stock” to perform at about five months after we completed all of the members. This was the first original song I wrote and when I brought it to my band mates, they loved it! It’s very cheesy, as expected by the song title, but who doesn’t love a good love song?! The funniest thing was that I wasn’t even dating someone at the time! Ohh well. Inspiration comes at the strangest times.